Do you really think it will be possible for me to enjoy myself after my business crashes and I actually lost so much ? It may not be possible. There will be a little relief if I am looking for another business to do to recover the money than to sit like that.If that is your stand then you are putting more pressure on yourself. After a loss and you try to recover the losses that may lead to another failure. Why not let the issue rest for a time while you are minding other things to help your mental health in the recovery. Do some hobbies.