This is understandable. Once you get the first loan, the second and third become easier and it becomes hard to break that cycle. I do work online to help me with extra bills so I don't have to borrow and it's been a life saver for the past two months as my salary is delayed.I think it's super important to learn not to live above your means whenever possible. When my husband and I first got married, we were broke. That led us to make reckless decision with credit cards, loans, financing cars, etc. (We were also young & dumb). I'm still working on paying off a $9k car that was $23k after financing because I didn't have a good credit score. Even thought we make pretty good money now, we're still working to pay off all these bills that have added up from back then. Once you start to drown in debt, it's hard to get out from under it.